Opening up to the Divine Mystery has been my prayer from that first moment that spark inside me ignited – and all I’ve wanted to do since is stand on the tallest of mountains and from the deepest of oceans and shout God’s glory out into the world.
This was 19 years ago and I have been chasing that mystery ever since.
Things have evolved and transformed since that first moment of awakening. About four years ago Our Divine Holy Mother entered my life in A BIG WAY and she hasn’t let go. I’ve been immersed in Her energy and yearning for Her ever since, wanting to get closer and deeper into Her love.
While praying to Our Holy Mother the other day and asking – what do I need to know right now, the message that I received was
“Open your heart”
I didn’t know my heart was closed until I felt those words spoken inside of me.
What do I need to do to open my heart?
How do I open my heart?
Surrender – That’s my answer. When I have fully and totally opened my heart that’s when surrender can happen. Surrender into the Divine within.
What I’m realizing now is that every time I’m at the end of a journey, when I’m all the way at the edge, in order to be able to take that next big step, I need to open my heart wider to move forward, to be able to cross that threshold and surrender in a greater way.
This constant evolution of opening my heart and surrendering is part of my journey. Sometimes it’s so easy to connect to be open and feel Her and hear Her and yet at other times it all eludes me. Why can’t I keep my heart open all the time? Why can’t I surrender? What is it that stands in my way, what limits me? Is it fear? Is it my thoughts? Is it my ego not wanting to let go? Is it me unable to give up control?
I have questions but I don’t have any answers. All I can hope for is that I follow my inner nudgings that lead me to Her, my Mistress.
I started a 30 day devotional to our Holy Mother, I don’t know where this will take me, but I hope to have an open heart and surrender into her guidance. To give up and let go and fall into her embrace.
Is your heart open? What does surrender look like to you? Come and share your thoughts, join the discussion, love to hear from you.
Copyright Masha G. Ellman 2016