Why Give Yourself a Break

Some days you just need to take yourself out of the normal in order to restore the normal. You have to give yourself time to replenish and re-nourish your soul. You have to give yourself a break.  You can’t expect to get up every day and be the same and create the same. Every day is new, every day is different, every day brings with it a new set of energies.

Some days can be a real struggle to get to my creativity, to open that door, to get rid of my inner critic. To quiet my mind. And then there are those days when creativity flows so easily out of me, when the words just flow and when I feel so connected to the mystery.  I’m just totally amazed, and I am in wonderment of what I see before me on the page. It’s during those times of struggle that I have to remind myself that it’s ok, that I should take a break and allow the nothing to be also, it has a right to be there just as much as the creative doing.

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You can’t force creativity, it’s either you’re open and it’s coming through you or it’s not. Forcing it never works, so I have to accept those days also and be gentle with myself and compassionate and allow myself to be in that place.

The last couple of days have been like that for me and after trying to create, to get into it and not being able to, I have to stop and…give myself a brake.

I have to remind myself that every day is new and brings new energies.

The same energies that were yesterday are not true for today and the same energies tomorrow will not be the same as today.

One day I may want to wear red and the next day I’m in black or brown or yellow.

One minute when i look up at the clouds i see animals and the next I see people.

And I’m constantly changing and I can’t be in the same energy every day.

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So I’m giving myself a break and I’m not getting stressed over that I can’t open to that inner place.  That I’m not able to allow.  That I need to create.  That I haven’t written what I had planned to.  That I can’t find the perfect photo.    Instead – I’m allowing myself to just be.

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In other words – I’m giving myself a break.

Are you giving yourself a brake?  How do you handle the – nothing?  Feel free to share in the comments below, love to chat with you.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

Why Look at Your Inner Truths

We see the world through the lens of our own set of beliefs. Whatever they are they color everything that we see. Change one belief that you have, change one negative into a positive, one fear into love and you change the way you see the world and your self.

When I was fifty I had a revelation, an awakening, and suddenly in one instant I knew that everything I believed in about life, about God and about me, was false, that my beliefs were not my own, they didn’t come from me, and I’ve been on a journey of unraveling this gift that is my life ever since.

The minute we change one of our limiting false thoughts about ourselves, we have opened the door to something different and more and we will immediately see the world around us in a different way.

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As I uncovered each one of these tightly held false truths that made up my beliefs and I looked into my own heart and changed them to my own beat, my world started to change and I started to see everything different.  I started to feel different, love overtook fear.  I opened to unlimited potential and endless possibilities that I never knew existed before.  I became more me as I peeled each layer away and allowed my own inner beauty to emerge from my own center.  A whole secret world filled with mystery and magick was unfolding.

And God?  God suddenly was in my heart but, not the God I had known all my life, not the God of my parents that I feared.   This God, my God – is all love.

I can tell you that you and only you yourself hold the power to your life and the key to your salvation.  Excavate your beliefs one by one and change what you don’t feel right about.  Accept only those beliefs that will serve for your highest good and that of all.  Remember Wayne Dyer’s words that “When you change the way you look at things the things you look at change.” and to change the way you look at things, you need to look at your inner truths.

How are you seeing your world?  What beliefs are you holding onto that are blocking you and limiting you?  Come and share your thoughts in the comment section below, love to chat.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

Bright July a Month to Love Yourself

I open the space of July to allow the miracles to pour into me.

I allow for magick to be born and for Divine Love to reveal Herself.

I open to the brightness of July, I cleanse myself of old negative energies and I open to new bright energies that serve me in a greater way.

I let myself trust and believe in the mystery of life.

I let myself move into the loving grace that awaits me, and I let myself love me.

I deserve this love.

I am one with this love.

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July is a month of ME.

Make yourself a priority.

Pencil yourself in to your calendar and schedule yourself for a daily dose of me time.

What do you need right now?

Meditate.  Listen to music.  Laugh. Buy yourself a present just because.

Listen to your body.

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Elevate your thoughts about yourself.

Say affirmations that support you right now.

Do one nice thing for YOU daily.  (This doesn’t mean you don’t love the world, or your family.)  Sit by yourself and have a cup of tea.  Put your feet up.  Take a nap.  Go for a walk.  Listen to your inner voice.

Appreciate and honor your body. When you shower do it with loving thoughts for every part you wash.

Make yourself a priority.  Don’t leave yourself for last.  You matter.  You are special.  You deserve.  You are worthy and precious.

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It’s time to nurture yourself and grow into yourself.

This is a month to heal –  To open and receive.  To welcome possibilities and opportunities that will grow you.

Stay mindful throughout the day.  Capture moments of bliss.

Be grateful for you – Open to your vision of yourself.

This is you, it’s the only you there is and ever will be, inside the only life you will ever have as you – Make time for you!

Are you making time for you?  Love to know, come and share in the comments below.

Bright Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

Trust is Your Spiritual Magick

Open yourself to trust and you open the doors to your spiritual magick.

Trust and the miracles will show up

Trust and the magick will appear

Trust in the Universal Force we call God, Allah, Buddah, Divine Mother…

Trust that you are being held in love

Protected and guided, all the time

Trust in your inner compass

Trust in your self-expression

Trust in infinite possibilities

Trust in your higher self, in your truest authentic self.  It will never steer you in the wrong direction

Trust that when you ask for something, that it is already so – trust that all you have to do is get out of the way and allow it to yourself

Trust that when you open up to receive – open your arms wide and you will

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From a very young age I was brought up to believe not to trust anyone, not the friend, the neighbor, the stranger in the street.  Not anything anyone wants to give me, no one, and most definitely NOT GOD. Life is hard, cold, unforgiving.  By the time I was four I was filled with the horrors of the Holocaust, words that poured out of my mother’s mouth, tears that ran down her face, emotions and feelings that poured out of her and found their home inside of me.  Warnings that were hammered into me by my father.  And of course they knew, they lived the horrors they stood witness to the killings, they lost their entire families, everyone they loved and everything they knew and by some unknown miracle they survived.  I didn’t know what to do with all of this, so I kept it locked inside and I lived by that code of – don’t trust.

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Learn to get out of your way and let Universal Force open the way for you. Trust and follow your path, trust that everything will unfold in divine timing just the way it’s meant to, for your highest good and that of all.

Trust in the invisible knowing that all is well for you even in times of hardship and famish.  Trust in that this Universal Force will catch you when you fall, hold you, protect you and is loving you even when you refuse to acknowledge It.  Trust that this Universal Force is with you, has always been with you, is a part of you and will never be without you.

Trust that no matter what, no matter how much you push It away, if you take one step towards It – It will take a hundred steps towards you.

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I’ve done a lot of work to get to this place of trust, and still I have to admit that my heart is not always open to trust in that unknown invisible energy that is the All Loving.  I’m not always trusting in my inner voice.  I still hold back, I still can’t let completely go at times, I still question myself and Divine Mother.

And I have to remind myself to –

Trust in the gift that is my life – Trust that I am one with Divine Being.  Trust that my heart knows what I yet don’t.  That when I follow and trust, the magick happens and the miracles flow.  Trust.

Do you trust? How do you trust?  Feel free to leave a comment and share this post.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

 

 

 

Why You Need to Change Your Story

Life meets you right where you are.  It unfolds in exactly the way you think about your life, your self, your story.  It can never be any other way.

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I’m reading Gabrielle Bernstein’s new book The Universe Has Your Back when I had an AHA moment and it hit me why I’m still holding back, why I haven’t totally let go and broke out of the small hidden place I’m keeping myself in, even though I really want to.   It’s because of the story i’ve been telling myself about my story.  The words that I’ve been using have kept me hidden, small and afraid.

I’ve been telling myself the same story, about my story, for so long that I didn’t even realize or hear the words I was telling myself.  They were there every time I started to write creating a block I couldn’t get past. It’s too hard, it’s so heavy, I don’t want to go there, I can’t, I’m afraid, it’s too emotional… this has been my foundation and has been what has kept me from a lot of things, not just writing.  With those words I kept myself stuck and didn’t know it.  These words I’m telling myself have kept me from believing in myself, loving myself, having faith, seeing a beautiful miraculous world. This story has ruled and regulated and shaped every moment of my life.

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The story I’ve been telling myself doesn’t even belong to me, it belongs to my mother, those are her words her beliefs about life. These are the words that I heard my mother speak every day from the day I was born – suffered, hard work, starved, where was God? No there is no God, I’m afraid, life is hard… These are the words that permeated into my very being, into every cell in my body.  I didn’t understand what they mean when I was a child, but I felt  my mothers pain in them.  They stuck in me and I took them and I made them my own.

And of course my mother had every right to speak them and hold them, they described the horrors she lived every day in the hells of concentration camps. But they are not my words, I didn’t live and survive the Holocaust, she did. I can listen, I can sympathize, I can cry, I can feel the emotional, I can love her… But I wasn’t there in the physical, I didn’t live through the horrors and I can’t claim those words as my own.

In making them my own, I’ve been living my mothers story not mine.  This doesn’t mean that I’m denying my story, it’s as much a part of me as my right arm, it’s my history, my legacy, my ancestors, and I carry an obligation with it.  But, if I want to live an extraordinary life I have to give myself an extraordinary story, one that belongs to me and honors me.  One that will uplift and empower me, strengthen and elevate me and support me to live my life in glory.

Life responds in kind, the thoughts that we put out is the life that we get to live.  And so I’m changing my story (the one that I’m telling myself) about my story.

How about you?  Do you have a story you maybe need to change? Feel free to leave a comment below, and feel free to share this blog post.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

Lets Get Real…

“The beauty that is within you cannot be contained…it will be reflected without; let it shine forth.” ~ Eileen Caddy

One of the hardest things for me has been to open up about myself and write about me. Oh I can talk very easily and tell someone about myself, no problem.  And at times even disclose secret things, but when it comes to writing them something happens to me, I freeze, I block, I can’t seem to get the words from inside to flow out to the page in the same way that I can get the words to flow out from my mouth.

I don’t know why that is, well I do. Mostly it’s because before I even start writing I’m judging, deleting, editing, criticizing every word before I even let it come into my consciousness if that’s possible.

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And then there is of course Miss Perfectionist at work here.  I worry over what people will think, how they will perceive me and that stops my words from flowing.  Instead, my writing becomes stiff, doesn’t sound like me and is laced with high fluting words that I probably would not use in normal every day conversation and this all because I want to look and sound intelligent and interesting and brilliant and clever… on paper.

Knowing all this has not made a difference, I’m still stumped and freeze and can’t write about me, my story, from my heart.

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I keep on thinking about what Anne Lamott says in her book Bird by Bird about the need to let go and write those “shitty first drafts” how we need to have those (and I’ll probably have lots of those) to gain clarity into our second and third drafts.  And for me a way to remove those blocks and get to the space of brilliance within.

So this is a start towards a more deeper conversation here, and a deeper more real blog. It may not happen every week, but I hope you’ll join in on the conversation and let me know how it makes you feel.

I’m getting real!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017