Journal Entry – Divine Feminine

These are the words that came to me today when I saw the word “Feminine” for today’s prompt for the May Magick 2019 that I’m participating in.

I didn’t always see myself as feminine and having worth and being special.

I didn’t always honor myself, love myself, create sacred space for me.  I didn’t know about angels and spirit guides and animal spirits, faeries and Gaia.  Or, ritual and prayer.  And I didn’t know about Her.  I didn’t know about the Divine Feminine.

rose2I didn’t know that I can ask for myself, and that it’s ok to receive, give myself permission, and forgive myself.  That I don’t have to feel guilty, or make myself small to let others feel good about themselves.  I didn’t always know that I don’t have to carry shame around with me like a suit of armor, or live from a place of fear.  And I didn’t know that I don’t have to hide myself away, I didn’t always know that there is another way, that I’m allowed to think a different way or that the universe is not against me.

I wasn’t always proud of who I am.  The truth is that I didn’t know who I am.

I didn’t know my own feminine worth, my own beauty, my own desires.  I didn’t have dreams, I didn’t know I was creative, and loving, that I had wisdom and beauty and joy all inside of me just waiting for me to wake up to my own self and unearth out my hidden treasures.

I didn’t always know that I am Divine Mother incarnate.  That She is in me, as me, and through me.  She is me and I am Her.

I didn’t know – I am all that – Divine Feminine!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

 

Reminder-Your Angels are Always With You

When you’re in pain, when you know that you have a heavy long road ahead of you towards your recovery.  When you’re inside that place, when even without wanting to, you fall into that place of depression and despair, it’s easy to forget all that you know about healing, about visualizing, about calling on your angels to help you…

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And then, the universe totally surprises you and out of the blue while you’re at the therapy center you look down, and there on the floor amidst weights right in front of you, there on the floor, is a tiny feather, (how did this feather even get in here?) a wink from the universe letting you know it’ll be alright, and you remember what you know to be true – call on us your angels for love, protection, light, guidance, and healing.  You smile inside your heart and you know you’ll be alright.  And you say, thank you for reminding me that you’re always here with me –  Thank you, I love you, love you, love you.

Angel Blessings

Why Get to Know Yourself

The greatest gift that you can give to yourself is to – know yourself – not from the outside in, but from the inside out, that’s how you bloom into harmony with yourself and actually with all of life.

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For the last 22 years I’ve been on an awakened spiritual journey and what I can tell you is that from the moment of my conscious awakening all I’ve wanted to do is go deeper and deeper within.  It is from that place within that I’ve gotten to know life, the universe, and me.  And one thing’s for sure, there’s always more, there’s always another door to open and walk through.  There’s always a new path unfolding.  There’s always another layer of illusion to shed. There’s always another level of higher consciousness opening.  A continuous spiral that never ends.

The more I get to know myself, the more I’m able to create balance in my life.  The more I’m able to stick with a healthier daily routine, and get to know me, the true, real naked me, the me who I really am.

The more I get to know myself the more I live in loving harmony with myself in mind, body and soul.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

How I Set Myself Up for a Successful Outcome

On the 18th I’m scheduled for a knee replacement surgery, I’ll be in the hospital overnight and then I’ll be in a rehab center, I don’t know for how long before I’m able to come home.

I’m not going to lie, yes I am concerned and I am at times flipping out, but at the same time I know that everything will be ok, the surgery will be a success, and I will get through this and will be perfect and happy and grateful that I’m after it all, and everything turned out great.

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I’m trying to hold on to my deepest beliefs here, that what we put out into the universe with our thoughts and feelings is what we receive back from the universe.  So  I’m envisioning me after everything, healthy and well and feeling so happy.  Seeing myself walking around my neighborhood, stopping and taking photos.  Thanking our Great Mystery our Divine Mother, my angels and all the celestial beings who are with me helping me and blessing me.  Giving thanks that the surgery was a success and I’m now able to travel.  I’m on a cruise.  I’m climbing mountains YEAH!!! (well maybe the mountains thing will stay in my imagination :), and  I’m feeling extremely happy and giving thanks that I’m healed and well.  I’m blessing and thanking the surgeon and his team, and all the people who helped me.  Thank you – Thank you – Thank you.

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When I decided to bring my rose quartz crystal with me to have its loving energy, I wanted to take a photo for this blog post and the funny thing is that the crystal kept on falling out of my hand and I couldn’t hold on to it to snap a picture.  After about the fifth time I finally got the message, LOL, I was using the wrong background. The minute I realized this, my mothers needlepoint with the Hummingbirds that she made for me years ago came into my mind.  There was more to this than just my crystal. The Hummingbird is bringing the message of hope and jubilation.  Of joy, renewal, healing and more.  And of course my darling mother letting me know she’s with me, watching over me, all will be well.  A sign of hope to take with me.

Life is not always sunshine and flowers and magical fluffy stuff.  With every new age come new challenges.  I’m 72 now and my body is not what it was when I was 20, or 30 or even 60, or last year.  And so, I’m moving with the flow, holding on to my vision of wellness, being grateful, having faith in the process and allowing it to unfold in the way that it’s supposed to – divinely.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

A Message from Your Angels

Be conscious of nourishing your joy.

It’s so easy to get lost inside the everyday hustle and to forget your joy.

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Reminder alert here –

Nourish your joy every day, don’t let it fall to the wayside and let yourself get caught up in negative thoughts that are not serving you well.  Be conscious of your joy, if you’re not feeling it, stop and ask yourself what are you feeling?  How important is that feeling to you?  If it’s not brining you joy, why are you holding on to it?  Let it go, get conscious and do something that brings you joy, and hold on to that instead.  This can be as simple as taking a break and sitting quietly having a cup of coffee, calling on your angels and asking them to help you feel joy, drawing a doodle for a few minutes, or mindfully affirming that you are joy.  Your body, mind and soul will thank you, and your angels will be dancing all around you.

Your angels want you to know that joy is your gift, and you’re here to feel joy – allow joy to flourish.

Angel blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

 

Why Give Your Self Praise

It’s real easy to put ourselves down for what we believe we didn’t do right, or perfect enough, or for putting our foot in our mouth…But it’s not often, or maybe never, that we give ourselves a high five for a job well done.  Maybe appreciating ourselves for finishing a goal we set for ourselves, for being brave enough, or for the every day things that we accomplish…We praise everyone else for all sorts of things, oh what you did was great…I knew you could do it…I’m so proud of you…you’re amazing…but we don’t say those kind precious words to our own self.

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I was looking through some photos and I’m in awe of how great a photographer I’ve become.  I’ve busted through and gotten over my fear of photographing something in public. I’ve developed a keen eye and an inner sense of looking through the lens and highlighting the beauty in what I’m photographing. I’ve gained perspective for how to position my subject for best effect, and I’ve learned how to edit my photographs…I’ve fallen in love with the camera and seeing my creations bring happiness to others makes me super happy and proud of myself.  So today I’m praising myself for the awesome photographer I’ve become.  I AM AWESOME!!!  YEAH!!! 

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If you’ve been following me for a while, you can kind of tell that I love flowers.  I find them wherever I go.  These I photographed today at the supermarket.

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Giving your self praise will uplift your mood, will make you happy and feel good about yourself, and it’ll help you believe in yourself.  It will empower you, give you self confidence, motivation and inspiration – and guess what?  All that is good for your health.

So how about you?  Be your own best friend.  You deserve kindness from you, you deserve your own praise.   It’s the greatest pick me up and the greatest for your soul.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019