Lets Get Real…

“The beauty that is within you cannot be contained…it will be reflected without; let it shine forth.” ~ Eileen Caddy

One of the hardest things for me has been to open up about myself and write about me. Oh I can talk very easily and tell someone about myself, no problem.  And at times even disclose secret things, but when it comes to writing them something happens to me, I freeze, I block, I can’t seem to get the words from inside to flow out to the page in the same way that I can get the words to flow out from my mouth.

I don’t know why that is, well I do. Mostly it’s because before I even start writing I’m judging, deleting, editing, criticizing every word before I even let it come into my consciousness if that’s possible.

Purple 2.jpegAnother reason stems from my childhood. My parents were both holocaust survivors, and from a very young age my father would warn me every single day not to tell anyone anything about me or my family. If anyone asks he would warn me, tell them “you don’t know” – These words made me hide myself away afraid to let anyone see the real me, “I don’t know” became my mantra for my life. My father passed away when I was thirteen years old, but his stern warning has stayed with me my entire life.

And then there is of course Miss Perfectionist at work here.  I worry over what people will think, how they will perceive me and that stops my words from flowing.  Instead, my writing becomes stiff, doesn’t sound like me and is laced with high fluting words that I probably would not use in normal every day conversation and this all because I want to look and sound intelligent and interesting and brilliant and clever… on paper.

Knowing all this has not made a difference, I’m still stumped and freeze and can’t write about me, my story, from my heart.

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I keep on thinking about what Anne Lamott says in her book Bird by Bird about the need to let go and write those “shitty first drafts” how we need to have those (and I’ll probably have lots of those) to gain clarity into our second and third drafts.  And for me a way to remove those blocks and get to the space of brilliance within.

So this is a start towards a more deeper conversation here, and a deeper more real blog. It may not happen every week, but I hope you’ll join in on the conversation and let me know how it makes you feel.

I’m getting real!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

Take In Beauty Everyday

There’s beauty and magic all around us in the everyday ordinary things, but often we fall into our daily business and we don’t notice the simple things right in front of us that hold magic locked inside them.

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You are a magical being and you have natural creative abilities that you can access to create a sweeter life everyday.  For me just a simple thing as stopping for a moment and taking a photograph with my cell phone of a tree that catches my eye, a flower that’s on display at the supermarket , noticing the pavement I’m stepping on, or a sign that captures my attention – just the act of stopping and snapping a photo, elevates my energy, makes me feel happy and changes my whole day.

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Unlock the beauty that surrounds you and give yourself a treat, a gift each day of creativity and inspiration.  You don’t have to be a professional photographer, or a creative anything to find a moment to stop and rest in beauty. It will elevate your mood and elevate your energy.  When I’m in that moment I’m totally alone inside myself, as if nothing else exists.

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You will create more balance and harmony in your life when you stop and pay attention to the nature around you.  Make a conscious decision to become aware of your surroundings and find at least one thing each day that calls to you, and you will be amazed at the wonders you’ll discover.

Start your day with this intention, look around you see what jumps out at you, there’s beauty everywhere.  Tune into your intuition and allow it to guide you, you will get that feeling that says YES LOOK STOP.  Embrace that moment of wonder that the universe is pouring out to you.  Whatever it is that you notice, take a moment and thank it for being available for you.  Snap a photo if you want to.  Write a few words, or hold it in your imagination.

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And you know what they say, practice makes perfect.  With every day that you will honor your creative energy, and be tuned into your intuition, you will notice that you’re automatically tuning into the nature and the wonder of this mystery.  This photo of tulips on sale at the supermarket was my bliss today, it put a smile on my face for the rest of the day, how gorgeous is this?

So bring some enchantment into your everyday,  get creative, get inspired, every day find a moment of beauty to rest into, let it capture your imagination and warm your heart.

I invite you to come and join in and share your everyday sweet beauty here in the comments below.  And feel free to share this blog post.

Beauty Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

Happy Earth Day

You carry Mother Earth within you.  She is not outside of you.  Mother Earth is not just your environment.  In that insight of inter-being, it is possible to have real communication with the earth, which is the highest form of prayer. ~ Tich Nhat Hanh

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We live in partnership with our precious Mother Earth, not separate.

Earth Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

All About Listening + Spring

“Can words describe the fragrance of the very breath of spring?” ~ Neltje Blanchan

I wanted to write about trusting your inner knowing.  I tried all week to write it but I just couldn’t find the right words.  I even tried to decide on the pictures to accompany the words, and that was a struggle too.  I couldn’t get the right picture, the right color, it wasn’t coming naturally and smoothly.  In the end I just couldn’t get it and before I knew it, here I am Sunday afternoon and I’m still trying to force write what isn’t coming.

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Isn’t it ironic that while I was trying to write about trusting my inner wisdom, I was actually doing the very opposite.  So instead I let go of forcing and I decided to actually – trust and listen – (LOL) to my inner knowing, and go with what was my original instinct that I had for this week and post some of the gorgeous photos I took while out and about.

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Ahhhhhhhh the colors, the smell, the new freshness of Spring!  What beauty it holds.     What precious gifts!…

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Is this the most luscious pink, or what?

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Trusting in my inner wisdom is not always easy.  Sometimes I’m blinded by that other part of me that lives in the rational realm that always wants to let me know that it knows better and says no, that’s not good enough, or clever enough, and I fall pray to it’s clutches.    I’m working hard at listening to that part of me that knows all, and always has my best interest at heart that is for my highest good and that of all.

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So, welcome Spring –

I hope you found as much joy, loveliness and some peaceful moments while reading, and allowed these photos with their brilliant colors to touch your senses, as I did while writing this post.

“The earth laughs in flowers.” ~ Emmerson

As always, you’re invited to share your thoughts, comments, pictures.  Let’s chat.

Wishing you Spring Blessings.

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

Give Yourself a Brake

“You don’t always need a plan.  Sometimes you just need to breath, trust, let go and see what happens.” ~ Mandy Hale

I started out knowing exactly what I wanted to write for this week of February Love last week it was Spend Time With Your Dreams and this week it was going to be – clearing space. Yes, that’s what I planned, (so I thought) I even had a rough draft ready but as the days slipped out from under me it just wasn’t happening.  I couldn’t get myself to read what I wrote, I didn’t feel it, I didn’t know how to write it, I kept on procrastinating every day and I couldn’t approach it, it was stuck inside me and I couldn’t get to it.  It was feeling more like a burden than a joy, and I started to tell myself all the negative stuff that doesn’t serve me.  Everyday that passed I got more frustrated and stressed at not being able to write it.

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In all of this I forgot to have some self compassion for myself and give myself a break.  Instead of stressing over this, beating myself up and berating myself, I needed to remember that every day cannot be the same, and sometimes the plans that we have so carefully and thoughtfully laid out, are just not meant to be, they are not happening.

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” ~ Buddha

I forget that there’s a Universal Force that is greater than me and always knows what is best for me and for all.  Opening to this Universal Force is not always clear to me, I stumble and resist until I realize wait a minute, let me let go and let the Universe do it. Maybe writing about clearing space was not meant for now, someday but not now.

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So last night I went to sleep trusting that the Universe will give me the perfect words.  This morning I opened myself up to allowing what wants to be written to come through, and here I am writing about letting go, allowing Spirit to shine through.  I’m reminding me and you about – compassion for yourself, giving yourself a break, letting go, know that you’re always supported by a loving force and allow the magic to happen.

The love for this week…

Give yourself some self compassion – give yourself a brake – instead of beating yourself up over not being able to do what you had planned – get out of the way and allow what wants to come through.  Be conscious of the Universal Force that knows what is best and let it shine through you.

And I have to say that this feels really good and perfect as I am writing it.

What about you?  Are you giving yourself a brake?  What do you do to give yourself self compassion.  Are you letting Spirit shine through you?  Leave a comment and let us know, love to hear from you.

Sending you lots of love and blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017