Suspend Your Hold on Your Beliefs

Your beliefs hold the magic key to your life.

It is from this center of beliefs that your life is unfolding.  There are no limits to your being except for how you believe about yourself.  No limits to the love in your heart, no limits to infinite possibilities that lie in waiting for you.  Everything you look at, everything you touch, everything you allow or don’t allow, every reaction and every action you take, is colored and shaped by the beliefs you hold dear for yourself.

If you can suspend your hold on your beliefs, and look at them, one by one, bring them out from the depth of your being, and hold them up in the light and see if they are really yours.  And ask yourself, is this what I really and truly believe?  Or did I pick this up from someone else somewhere along the way, and just held on to it as my own?  It is than that you will begin the journey home to finding – you.

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For fifty years I held on to beliefs that weren’t mine, they belonged to others, but I took them from the time I was a small child.  They were placed on me, ingrained into me, handed down to me like precious heirlooms, gifts from those who have lived and earned the right to declare them, and I took them, I believed them to be the gospel truth, about the universe, God, and of how I am.  I took these words and I put them inside of me, and I made them my own. They became embedded into every cell in my body. They became the center of my universe. The place from where all my decisions were made. They became what ruled and regulated and shaped my life.  All of my experiences were filtered through, and colored by, the beliefs that I upheld to and measured everything against.

I was those beliefs.

One day while reading my very first book on spirituality “The Seat of the Soul” I had an awakening, my heart opened up and I knew, I don’t know how I knew, but I knew that there is another way, that maybe everything I’ve held onto as gospel truth, was not the truth for me.  I knew that I can have different thoughts and different ideas and different beliefs from what I had known up to that moment. WOW!!! What a revelation!!! To realize that I can and am allowed to think a different way was amazing to me. And once I started to excavate and to work on my inner self and once I started to be able to change beliefs that I’ve held onto since childhood, my whole life started to transform.

Suddenly everything about me started to open, to expand, to uplift.  Life wasn’t cold and hard and life wasn’t something to fear and God was not what I was brought up to believe.  Suddenly the universe was revealing herself in ways I never had known and I was welcoming all of it, I was hungry, starving for the new that was unfolding.  And I started to let God in, a new God not the God I had feared and didn’t want to have anything to do with.  That God was my parents God, not mine, and I allowed a loving God to reveal God-self to me.

Every time I was able to suspend my hold on a belief that didn’t belong to me, and change it to what I did believe, limitations fell to the way side, possibilities appeared, doors opened where there were none before, it was like a whole new world opened up walls of steel fell off me and I felt freedom from the prison I had enclosed myself into.

When I suspended the hold on the beliefs that didn’t belong to me – I started to find myself.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

I Give Myself Permission To…

The universe reveals itself in amazing ways.  This message came to me under the magic of the full moon. 8.26.18
I give myself permission to soar higher than ever before.
I give myself permission to connect with the higher beings who are here to help me.
I give myself permission to play, to love my life, to dance on the edges of this mystical universe.
I give myself permission to stake out my claim.
I give myself permission to be worthy of my gifts and talents.
To succeed.
To create.  Teach.  To Inspire.
To be imperfect –
I give myself permission to transform.
I give myself permission to be the truth of who I am.
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I give myself permission to liberate myself from the fears that are holding me back.
To not care what anyone thinks of me.
To think whatever and however I want to.
I give myself permission to cry, to laugh for no reason.
I give myself permission to heal from past hurts.
To release deep pains.
I give myself permission to let all that crap go out of me.
I give myself permission for extreme self care.
I give myself permission to say no, to set boundaries, to require respect.
That I am important and need space.
I give myself permission to use my voice.
To shine my light as bright as can be.
I give myself permission to receive magic and miracles every day.
I give myself permission to forgive myself.  To believe it’s ok.
To hold hope in my heart.
To trust in myself and my higher being.
To sprinkle blessings wherever I go.
I give myself permission to be wild and free.  To journey inward to uncover the hidden treasures within me.
I give myself permission to create from my heart and my soul.  To know I am an artist.  To have grand visions and dreams.  And permission to express my art.
To fail and start again.
I give myself permission to honor myself, to love myself, to remember –
I am Sacred I am Divine.
I give myself permission to be just – ME!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

 

I Rise Up

A lifetime habit of putting yourself down and believing you’re not good enough or capable enough, or educated enough, doesn’t end just because you said a mantra, journaled about it, affirmed that you are worthy.  Or because you became more spiritual, are meditating or saying positive affirmations…

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A lifetime habit of putting yourself down is a work in progress and no matter how far you’ve come, those crazy old I’m not good enough thoughts, I don’t know enough, I don’t measure up, let me not get too big, show off.  I’m not whatever – enough – will when you least expect them to, they will creep back into your consciousness, stop you dead in your tracks, and leave you frozen in time unable to move.  And the thing is that you may not even notice that you’re inside the self doubting yourself roller coaster…

You have to always be conscious of the thoughts that are inside you ruling you.  When you become aware and realize, just stop for a minute, and ask yourself –

Is that really true?  Do I really believe that I’m not good enough? Do I really believe I’m not worthy enough? Or, deserving enough?  Do I really want to make myself less important?  Maybe you want to journal about it and go deeper, there is always another deeper layer, and find out where these thoughts are coming from, or why.  And when the answer rises, say thank you, thank you, thank you, and – rise up!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

August – A Month of Pampering Yourself

There are many ways that we can pamper ourselves.  Take a hot bath with scented oils.  Get a massage.  Take a nap.  Buy ourselves flowers, a gift, take a walk in nature, see a movie with a friend…but we don’t think about pampering ourself with the thoughts that we allow to overtake our mind and body.

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Every thought that we have holds either a negative or positive energy that affects our entire selves.  Our thoughts don’t just stay in our mind, they filter through to every cell in our body.  They get embedded in our blood, our skin, our bones.  They get into every nook and crevice.  They park themselves inside of us creating havoc in our bodies if they are negative thoughts.

Every thought dictates our well being.  Every thought heals us or not, makes us feel happy or not, loving or not, angry or not.  Every thought creates a feeling which creates an emotion, which creates our experience, which creates our actions. And with every thought we have every day, we’re living and experiencing our life.

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I’m making August a month of mindful pampering for me.  Reminding myself every week of another area I’ve been neglecting.  Life happens and things just get away from me and I have to bring myself back to what’s important for me.  Living everyday mindfully and consciously aware of what thoughts and words I allow into my mind and body.  What I allow to rule, regulate and shape me, helps me to stay more open to what’s important for me, and that is filling myself with loving healing energy and connected with Divine Mother.

What I do is I set my intention to be conscious of negative thoughts I’m holding on to.  It may be something someone said at work, or something that I’m thinking about myself. Words that I’m using to berate myself, thoughts of not being good enough…I stop myself, I thank that thought for being here and I tell it I don’t need it anymore and I change it to a positive thought.  I only hold on to good loving thoughts about myself.  

My trick for reminding myself to only hold on to words and thoughts that are empowering for me, is I place sticky notes around my house to remind myself.  I’ll write on them – be conscious of your thoughts.  I’ll place a sticky note on my bathroom mirror, on my refrigerator, on my computer, on the table where I sit, on the dashboard of my car, anyplace where I will see them throughout the day.   I deserve good thoughts.  This works like magic.

Inner calm, a feeling of peace, living at a higher vibration.  Feeling in harmony with universal forces, manifesting our desires, all of this happens when we remove the negative thoughts that block us, limit us, disempower us, that are influencing our every day living.

So make August a month of pampering yourself with thoughts that uplift and heal!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

Getting Un-stuck

OK I really need help here, there are times that I just can’t leave work on Friday and leave it all behind me and pick it up again on Monday.  No matter how much I try I need closure, I need to finish what has started, I need to address issues…I cannot put them aside, shelve them neatly in my mind, lock them behind a closed cabinet. I can’t seem to disengage from the words that are like stuck in my mind, playing themselves over and over, and I carry them with me for the entire weekend because of course always things come up on Friday.

quote8This keeps me stuck and all the things I had planned on accomplishing during the weekend I can’t seem to get into.  I’m stuck inside this negative energy and I’m unable to open the way for love and kindness and creativity and whatever other amazing things want to embrace me.  I’ve tried meditating, going out for a walk.  I tried going through my photos, taking photos, writing, food shopping,  cooking, do the lesson from the course that I’m taking…Like I said, I’m usually mostly pretty good at getting un-stuck, but there are those times that no matter what I do, I can manage to quiet those swirling thoughts for a bit, but then they come back again and again. They are there and they overtake me.

Does this happen to you? Love to know what you do, how do you disengage and get unstuck from it all.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

Open

Open to your inner cravings.

Look at them.

What are they?

Are they pushing you, pulling you, enticing you, calling to you to meet them? To pick them up and create with them?  To let them out?

Are they dancing on the edges of your being?

Are they singing your song?

Open

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There are inner cravings that I cannot get away from. No matter what I do, they are there.  They are a part of me beckoning at me, calling at me, they are wanting to be heard, to be shown, to be drawn out into the open. I cannot ignore them they don’t leave me alone, they are always there pulling, pushing at me wanting to be let out. To shine in the world.  It doesn’t matter if  I’m not in the mood, or if I’m lazy, or tired, they even wake me from my sleep… they don’t go away they are always right there underneath the surface and I cannot hide from them. I must tend to them, they are like the weeds in my garden they are persistent and insist on coming out, persistent in growing where they want to grow, and I have to make the way.

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I’m inside a transformation right now, moving away from the used to be me and opening to a new me.  A me I’m not familiar with, entering a higher level of consciousness a place I walk unsteady in.  I know that I’m unfolding and I have grown into this new place, i can’t not go, I have to, I must. Even though the path in front of me I cannot see, this is the natural progression for my soul.

My life seems to be on hold for a moment while in this transition, while i find my way.  Everything I believe is expanding.  Everything I want to write I haven’t been able to.  The old way is falling away and the new is taking form inside a higher vibration.

I have crossed over the threshold, and armed with trust and faith I’ve taken the first step.  A new consciousness is being birthed in me and I am now present, ready, I allow, I open.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018