I Remember…Never Again

Today I stand with my brothers and sisters all around the world to commemorate the memory of the victims of the Holocaust, a day remembered around the world. It was today January 27, 1945 that the Soviet troops first entered the death camp Aucshwitz-Birkenau in Poland January 27, 1945; they were the first to enter the camps.

Both my mother and father were holocaust survivors, each the only survivor out of their entire families. In 1940 in one minute in time their entire life as they knew it was turned upside down and changed forever.   Everyone and everything they loved was ripped out of their heart and they were thrown into places where hell itself would have been paradise instead.

They survived five years of starvation, torture, degradation. They lived in fear of being chosen to be killed, or to be taken and used for experiments, every single second of every single day for five years.   They saw with their own eyes the horrors for which I have no words to describe.

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My mother spoke about her life, the horrors that she endured that others endured every single day from the time I was born till the day she passed away. The only thing I know about my father is what my mother told me, he never talked about it, his pain did not leave his heart and he passed away when I was 13 years old.

As a child I didn’t understand the words but I felt her pain, the tears that ran down her face, her words those were the fairytails I grew up with.

She was the most courageous woman I have ever known.  She was sentenced to be killed three different times, and each time she escape her death sentence by some miraculous way. I don’t know from where she mustered up the strength to live when each second for five long years seemed like an eternity.

My parents biggest dream was to live in peace, to come to America where their children could have a better life. My father never saw that dream come true.   My mother sacrificed everything she had to make this a reality for my brother and me. When we came to America was the first time I saw my mother smile really smile and laugh and sing. She was the most generous woman I know, always giving of herself and she always loved me unconditionally even through the years that I didn’t understand.

Today I light a candle in remembrance of all the more than 6 million Jews and the non Jews who were killed at the hands of the Nazis. I honor their memory.

I remember.

Copyright Masha G. Ellman 2017

Affirmation for Everyday

I am always divinely guided!

I said this affirmation yesterday morning and carried it with me like a mantra repeating it throughout the day.  I had it in my mind, in my heart and on my tongue.  I repeated it when I was stuck in heavy traffic which was making me late for an appointment.  I repeated it when I was at work and there was a situation I had to address.

Repeating this affirmation reminded me that I am always deeply loved and supported, I am not alone, the universal forces are holding me up and carrying me to exactly where I need to be and supporting me in every moment.


At the end of the day when I thought about it I could see how this affirmation really opened me up to the guidance that the universe was giving me and how I followed.

By holding this affirmation in my mind and heart I was saying – YES – I am open and willing to follow.

Try it out for yourself, carry these words with you and throughout the day affirm it to yourself and see how your day will unfold.-

I Am Always Divinely Guided!


Copyright Masha G. Ellman 2017

I’m Celebrating the End of My 60’s

I’m celebrating – Yes, I’ll be 70 in November and I’m celebrating the end of my 60’s.

My 60’s were all about finding revelation, looking for salvation. Searching for the mystery that grabbed a hold of me.  Opening and getting to the life force within me. Searching for a deeper knowing.  A wisdom that was beckoning from somewhere deep within.

My 60’s have been a decade of pushing, digging, breaking through walls I didn’t even know existed. Walls I built up and kept from the time I was a small child. Tall walls. Big fat hard walls. Walls of steal.



It’s been a decade of finding my way through the thickest of forests. Climbing impossible mountains and swimming in the deepest of oceans, in order to move beyond, to tear down, to unlock the chains that inhibit me and keep me hidden.  To get passed it all, to reach a new place. Little pebbles, stones, big stones and even huge stones, I’ve kicked them all out of the way. I’ve had help from Kali, Our Lady of Guadalupe, Lakshmi, Freya, Holy Mother, my angels, spirits, animal spirit guides, ancestors, Lord Ganesha. And there have been some wonderful teachers along the way and books and courses that I took that helped in unlocking the mystery.

I unearthed, uncovered, met my shadow self head on and got rid of inner critics that were telling me I’m not enough and replaced them with affirmations of glorious self worth, YES.

And finally, finally I’ve torn down the FEAR wall, the biggest one of all. You know, that wall that keeps you from stepping into your power. The wall that stops you dead in your tracks. The one that screams – N O T  G O O D  E N O U G H -written in huge letters all over it. Fear will paralyze you. Fear will keep you from your worth. Fear will keep you in your small place.  It’s that one wall that I held on to the tightest. It took lots of courage, strength and tenacity.  It took trust, faith and surrender, to move it out of the way.


I’ve learned much along the way; I’ve uncovered much about my inner world. I’ve come to know myself in a way I’ve never before.  In other words I’m celebrating getting through. Finding me. Yes ME!  And the greatest find of all is the revelation of My Goddess.

I Am.  I Am.  I Am.

Ready for a brand new hight of consciousness, a journey that holds promise and new teachings and celebrations.

Celebrate with me, come and share your thoughts.


Copyright Masha G. Ellman 2016




How to Reach Your Goal

I was just telling my son the other day that I don’t have the same will power that I used to have and I’m not really sure why? Lazy maybe? Last month I decided that I wanted to lose 20 pounds for my birthday in November, (I’ll be 70) and I set my intention to be mindful of what I feed my body. But, I haven’t really stuck to my intention, if anything it’s been the opposite and this last week I have totally fallen off that wagon. Aghh! (not a good thing)

I realized that if I don’t keep my goal in front of my mind all the time I easily deviate from it. So with the full moon in Capricorn and the sun in Cancer right now, this is a great time to begin again and to keep myself responsible and accountable for reaching my goal.


Studying Tarot I found out that according to the Rider-Waite-Smith Tarot that my personality card is Strength, I’m keeping this Tarot card as a reminder to keep myself strong, to empower me and know that – I can do it. I am not giving into my laziness I am stronger than it.

Here is my course of action:

I have placed sticky notes on my bathroom mirror so I can be reminded first thing in the morning and on my fridge as reminders.

When I’m in the supermarket I’m not even going down the potato chip aisle, I’m boy cutting that, nothing there I need, not even looking.

I’m keeping a shopping list to keep me on track and not deviating from it.

When the urge to ‘nosh’ overtakes me, I’m reminding myself that I am a food addict, and that the desire is only a momentary thought in my mind and I’m stronger than that.  I can turn it around and get passed it.

Giving gratitude at the end of the day for my accomplishment for that day, will strengthen my resolve to meet my goal.

My affirmation –

                                     I am strength!

This will keep me tuned into and responsible for my own nurturing, health and reaching my goal, and I hope that I can report to you guys in November that YEEEAAAAHHHH!!! I’ve done it.

What do you do to stay on track to reach your goals?  Lets share and encourage each other.

The card above is from the Wild Unknown Tarot deck.


Copyright Masha G. Ellman 2016


Get a Dream + Make it BIG!

I once read someplace that when you’re watching TV you’re watching someone else’s dream come true.

When you see someone who came from poverty and achieved what must seem like the impossible, do you sometimes wonder, how did they do it? Well, they did it because they had a dream they focused on.

For years I lived my life without a dream. And sad as this may sound, I didn’t even know that I could have a dream. I just lived what haphazardly happened because I din’t know different and because with or without a dream your life will go on.

Mostly we have little dreams. How often do you hear people say this, and I was one of those people – I just want my health.  When you have your health you have everything. Or, all I want is enough money to be able to pay my bills.

Why dream within limitations? Why not have both? Why not have your health and money, lots and lots of health and lots and lots of money? And lots and lots of happiness too.

Who said it’s gotta be one or the other?

If you cannot see yourself with more than just having enough money to pay your bills, than that is exactly what the universe will give you.


You get what you ask for, what you can see yourself with, with how much you are willing to accept for yourself.

This is the way it is. It’s the law of the universe.

Why not have BIG DREAMS? Why not wish and want and desire something greater than great?

When you have a dream you ignite a spark in the universal force that moves to meet you to bring your dream into fruition. Of course you have to do your part in this. And the universal forces will move mountains to meet your dream.

We are each the creator of our own life. We create with or without a dream, and dreams – BIG DREAMS – push us to live our greatness. And this can be pretty scary.

Sometimes we don’t have dreams because we don’t know we can. And sometimes we don’t have dreams because they scare us. Marianne Williamson wrote, “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.” To have a – BIG DREAMS -is to dare to live our life in greatness, it’s to live inside our power.



Here’s how you can start.

Move through the fear, don’t let that stop you. – You deserve to have BIG DREAMS.

Identify your dream.

What is it that you really, really want?

Focus on it.

Write it down. Write it down again and again.

Focus on it every single day.

Give it space in your life.

If you can’t take big steps, take small steps towards it. With every new small step towards it you’ll become more courageous.  And with every step, the less frightening it becomes and the more real it grows into being until it truly becomes a part of who you are.

Bring it to your mind every day, keep it in front of you so you don’t forget it.

Write it on sticky notes, place them where you will see them.

What you focus on manifests.

The more you focus on your dream the more courage you will gain to achieve it.

For every one step you take towards your dream, the universal forces will take a hundred.

One of my dreams is to encourage and inspire you to move past your fears and to get to your dreams.

Come and join in, state your dream in the comments below, ask questions, lets encourage each other.


Big Dream Blessings

Copyright Masha G. Ellman 2016

The Magic of Flowers

“The earth laughs in flowers” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

“I must have flowers, always, and always” ~Claude Monet



I love taking photos of flowers it stirs a creative note inside me that has been dormant for too long. I have always loved flowers since from the time I was a very small child.

These are just some of the beauties I saw and had to capture through my lens when at the supermarket. And this is a perfect time of the year to catch the magic of summer flowers. The colors are so rich they evoke happiness you can’t help but smile as you feast your eyes on them.

Their openness calls to you inviting you to open to your own inner beauty and let it shine out.

Flowers have power they nourish our psych. They touch us at our very core and fill us with happiness all the way down to our cells. You cannot look at a bouquet of flowers or at even one flower and not feel something.


Flowers stir our emotions. We use flowers to decorate our homes and ourselves. In Hawaii culture a woman will wear a flower on the right side of her hair close to her ear to show that she’s single and available. We decorate our places of worship and our altars. We use them as offering to our Goddesses. Red roses are for Our Lady of Guadalupe; the Hindu Goddess Lakshmi is depicted sitting on a pink Lotus flower and a lotus flower is associated with Buddhism, mindfulness. A yellow rose is given as a token of friendship.

We use them for baptisms. Weddings and funerals and everything in between.

They speak to us and are connected to us on a level that we do not readily understand.

We give them as tokens of our love. We bathe in their fragrance; we drink their nectar and wear perfume laced with their fragrance.


I buy flowers often and have them in my home. First I thank them for their beauty and for the energy that they fill my home with. Every time I walk by them I can’t help but smile. They have a way of uplifting our mood, put a smile on our face and fill us with an overall sense of wellness. They fill my space with joy.

When they are finished and ready, I thank them again for filling me with happiness and beauty.


Remember every single thing in this universe is conscious and by thanking them and being grateful for their presence, you are honoring the very force of creation.

“The force that through the green fuse drives the flower…” ~Dylan Thomas


Happy flowers!!!

Copyright Masha G. Ellman 2016