I LOVE my quiet time. I LOVE to spend time alone with just me. I cherish, honor and value it. It’s the most sacred and important gift I give to myself every day.
It wasn’t always like this. It started when I wanted to learn how to meditate. At first it was hard to sit and not do anything, I felt like I was going to jump out of my skin, I needed to get up and do something. As soon as I started to meditate I felt guilty, my thoughts went into overdrive and all I could think about is all the things I had to do, laundry, shopping, call clients, my work tomorrow… And than there was also the thoughts that raced through my mind of the what if’s – what if my kids are calling me and need me? What if my mother needs me? What if…and wait I have to clean, my friend is coming over later…After sitting for what seemed like forever, I stopped meditating and looked at the time and not even a minute had gone by. (I’m laughing at this now)
But, I was determined, it was like there was some force inside of me that kept pushing at me and so I continued and with practice and devoted time, I was able to sit in quiet for longer periods of time, and it started to feel good.
My quiet time has transformed to also include time for journal writing, for prayer time, for doing inner work to remove the layers of rubble that I buried myself under, and break through the walls I built around me, slowly liberating myself from the prison I enclosed myself inside of.
I LOVE to spend time alone, It’s when I feel the most connected with Spirit, with Divine Mother. It’s when I’m the most creative. It’s because of the time I spend in quiet solitude that I found ME and I gained strength and courage. I found my creative self and I found my voice, and some of my best ideas come to me while in quiet solitude.
I’m still unfolding in this quiet-time and finding deeper pathways to step into.
Quiet time has opened doors to my inner world, it has helped me to find myself and to speak my truth. To stand my ground and to put up boundaries. It’s taught me to realize what is important for me – to love myself, to give to myself, to believe that I am special, I am worthy, I am deserving – that I am the universe incarnated into me.
As a result, my quiet in my life has become a sacred ritual that makes me feel every day aligned with universal forces and deeply nourished and loved in all ways.
Do you have a quiet time practice? Love to hear about it.
This blog post was inspired by my friend Terri Conneli. I’m participating in her IG 5 day #quiettimechallenge, this is in response to day 2 prompt “Quiet in my life.” I think we’re on day 3 now, so I’m a bit behind. 🙂
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