journal writing – Page 10 – In My Everyday Life

I’m Celebrating the End of My 60’s

I’m celebrating – Yes, I’ll be 70 in November and I’m celebrating the end of my 60’s.

My 60’s were all about finding revelation, looking for salvation. Searching for the mystery that grabbed a hold of me. Opening and getting to the life force within me. Searching for a deeper knowing. A wisdom that was beckoning from somewhere deep within.

My 60’s have been a decade of pushing, digging, breaking through walls I didn’t even know existed. Walls I built up and kept from the time I was a small child. Tall walls. Big fat hard walls. Walls of steal.

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It’s been a decade of finding my way through the thickest of forests. Climbing impossible mountains and swimming in the deepest of oceans, in order to move beyond, to tear down, to unlock the chains that inhibit me and keep me hidden. To get passed it all, to reach a new place. Little pebbles, stones, big stones and even huge stones, I’ve kicked them all out of the way. I’ve had help from Kali, Our Lady of Guadalupe, Lakshmi, Freya, Holy Mother, my angels, spirits, animal spirit guides, ancestors, Lord Ganesha. And there have been some wonderful teachers along the way and books and courses that I took that helped in unlocking the mystery.

I unearthed, uncovered, met my shadow self head on and got rid of inner critics that were telling me I’m not enough and replaced them with affirmations of glorious self worth, YES.

And finally, finally I’ve torn down the FEAR wall, the biggest one of all. You know, that wall that keeps you from stepping into your power. The wall that stops you dead in your tracks. The one that screams – N O T G O O D E N O U G H -written in huge letters all over it. Fear will paralyze you. Fear will keep you from your worth. Fear will keep you in your small place. It’s that one wall that I held on to the tightest. It took lots of courage, strength and tenacity. It took trust, faith and surrender, to move it out of the way.

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I’ve learned much along the way; I’ve uncovered much about my inner world. I’ve come to know myself in a way I’ve never before. In other words I’m celebrating getting through. Finding me. Yes ME! And the greatest find of all is the revelation of My Goddess.

I Am. I Am. I Am.

Ready for a brand new hight of consciousness, a journey that holds promise and new teachings and celebrations.

Celebrate with me, come and share your thoughts.

Blessings

September 21, 2016

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Why do an Inner Clearing

Sometimes we don’t realize that we’re holding on to negative energies that are blocking us and are in need of letting go of – like old beliefs that do not serve us, old thoughts, issues, anger, all of this stuff is blocking us from filling ourselves up with good positive energies.

When we’re filled with negative energies we have no room for anything else. Feelings of joy, love, wonder, harmony all have no place where to plant themselves and flourish.

To create the conditions of a fertile landscape we must regularly tend to the soil of our soul. Just like we need to regularly tend to our garden and pull out the weeds that keep on growing, we need to tend to the inner landscape of our hearts and weed out what no longer serves our highest good. Caring for ourselves in this way keeps us open and creates the space for something better.

Give yourself time to sit and reflect on your inner landscape – what do you need to weed out? What thoughts are you holding on to that are creating an imbalance in your life and blocking you?

Today is the perfect day to start. Write out a list of what you can let go of.

What issues?

What fears can you let go of?

What bad feelings, what argument are you still clinging to?

What resentments are you still holding on to?

What can you leave out of your life?

When you’re done look at each one, acknowledge them, and tell them you no longer need them, let them know you’re letting them go now. Forgive yourself for holding on to them. You can do a little ceremony of letting go. (another blog post)

Make a commitment to yourself to consciously become aware of what you’re letting take root inside of you – remember that what you’re growing in your landscape is what is ruling and regulating and shaping your every day.

Clearing out and letting go of what doesn’t serve you, will open the gates and set you free. It will create space within your heart and open you up for greater and brighter energies to fill you.

If you feel that you can, come and share in the comments below the negative energies you’re letting go out of yourself.

Blessings of brighter energies

August 16, 2016

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You are Worthy of Exceptional Self-Care

“Nourishing myself is a joyful experience,

and I am worth the time spent on my healing.”

~ Louise Hay

It’s easy to loose track of our intentions that we so carefully set for ourselves when we are in the midst of all the hooohaaa of our daily messes. It’s easy to forget promises, commitments and intentions, so how do you keep them up front and center?

Create a plan that will give you guidance and support during the week and you don’t loose sight of the importance of you. Remember you are worthy of exceptional self care, that doesn’t make you a bad person. As a matter of fact it’s just the opposite, when you take great care of you, than you can also give great care to others.

Here are 3 easy and simple suggestions: Take what feels good to you and leave out the rest.

First weed out from your mind all the thoughts that are stopping you. All the reasons why you are not important enough. All the thoughts that say that you’re not deserving. All the thoughts that say that you’re a bad person for thinking of yourself as special. Think about it, are these thoughts your own or did you acquire them along the way from well meaning people in your life and you made them your own?

Write down your commitment, your intentions or any promises that you have made to yourself and read it every morning and every evening, this way you will not loose sight of what you desire for yourself. I strongly encourage you to do this, don’t leave it up to memory, I know I’ve done it, when I’ve left it to memory it never worked for me.

And lastly place sticky notes (yes, I’m really a big one on this) where you will see them to remind you throughout the day. I place them on my bathroom mirror, dashboard of my car, fridge to mention a few places. If you work place it on your computer if you can and it doesn’t have to be a long dissertation, just a word or two that will have meaning for you and will trigger your memory.

When you make self-care a priority in your life you are declaring to yourself and the universe – that you are worthy – that you are special – that you deserve – that you are important.

This is your journey, investing in yourself by honoring you and recognizing your sacred life – magic will happen.

Affirmation:

I AM WORTHY

I AM DESERVING

I AM SPECIAL

How do you take care of you? Do you have a routine, or do you put yourself on the back burner? Leave a comment, let us know.

Self Care Blessings

July 26, 2016

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The Tarot of the Sidhe Speaks Today

Dancer Nine wanted to be seen today, she jumped out as soon as I started to shuffle and she’s the perfect card for under this full moon ~make a wish~ send it out into the universe, release it, believe in it, and it will return to you fulfilled.

“On nights like this we make a wish,

The Dancer she may find her bliss,

Her dreams like bubbles on the air,

Held by magic true and rare…”

“Keywords: Granted Wish, Delight, Satisfaction, Anticipation, Excitement.”

If you’re moved by her dance, come and share in the comments below.

May your wishes all come true

July 20, 2016July 20, 2016

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How to Reach Your Goal

I was just telling my son the other day that I don’t have the same will power that I used to have and I’m not really sure why? Lazy maybe? Last month I decided that I wanted to lose 20 pounds for my birthday in November, (I’ll be 70) and I set my intention to be mindful of what I feed my body. But, I haven’t really stuck to my intention, if anything it’s been the opposite and this last week I have totally fallen off that wagon. Aghh! (not a good thing)

I realized that if I don’t keep my goal in front of my mind all the time I easily deviate from it. So with the full moon in Capricorn and the sun in Cancer right now, this is a great time to begin again and to keep myself responsible and accountable for reaching my goal.

Studying Tarot I found out that according to the Rider-Waite-Smith Tarot that my personality card is Strength, I’m keeping this Tarot card as a reminder to keep myself strong, to empower me and know that – I can do it. I am not giving into my laziness I am stronger than it.

Here is my course of action:

I have placed sticky notes on my bathroom mirror so I can be reminded first thing in the morning and on my fridge as reminders.

When I’m in the supermarket I’m not even going down the potato chip aisle, I’m boy cutting that, nothing there I need, not even looking.

I’m keeping a shopping list to keep me on track and not deviating from it.

When the urge to ‘nosh’ overtakes me, I’m reminding myself that I am a food addict, and that the desire is only a momentary thought in my mind and I’m stronger than that. I can turn it around and get passed it.

Giving gratitude at the end of the day for my accomplishment for that day, will strengthen my resolve to meet my goal.

My affirmation –

I am strength!

This will keep me tuned into and responsible for my own nurturing, health and reaching my goal, and I hope that I can report to you guys in November that YEEEAAAAHHHH!!! I’ve done it.

What do you do to stay on track to reach your goals? Lets share and encourage each other.

The card above is from the Wild Unknown Tarot deck.

Blessings

July 18, 2016July 19, 2016

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Get a Dream + Make it BIG!

I once read someplace that when you’re watching TV you’re watching someone else’s dream come true.

When you see someone who came from poverty and achieved what must seem like the impossible, do you sometimes wonder, how did they do it? Well, they did it because they had a dream they focused on.

For years I lived my life without a dream. And sad as this may sound, I didn’t even know that I could have a dream. I just lived what haphazardly happened because I din’t know different and because with or without a dream your life will go on.

Mostly we have little dreams. How often do you hear people say this, and I was one of those people – I just want my health. When you have your health you have everything. Or, all I want is enough money to be able to pay my bills.

Why dream within limitations? Why not have both? Why not have your health and money, lots and lots of health and lots and lots of money? And lots and lots of happiness too.

Who said it’s gotta be one or the other?

If you cannot see yourself with more than just having enough money to pay your bills, than that is exactly what the universe will give you.

You get what you ask for, what you can see yourself with, with how much you are willing to accept for yourself.

This is the way it is. It’s the law of the universe.

Why not have BIG DREAMS? Why not wish and want and desire something greater than great?

When you have a dream you ignite a spark in the universal force that moves to meet you to bring your dream into fruition. Of course you have to do your part in this. And the universal forces will move mountains to meet your dream.

We are each the creator of our own life. We create with or without a dream, and dreams – BIG DREAMS – push us to live our greatness. And this can be pretty scary.

Sometimes we don’t have dreams because we don’t know we can. And sometimes we don’t have dreams because they scare us. Marianne Williamson wrote, “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.” To have a – BIG DREAMS -is to dare to live our life in greatness, it’s to live inside our power.

Here’s how you can start.

Move through the fear, don’t let that stop you. – You deserve to have BIG DREAMS.

Identify your dream.

What is it that you really, really want?

Focus on it.

Write it down. Write it down again and again.

Focus on it every single day.

Give it space in your life.

If you can’t take big steps, take small steps towards it. With every new small step towards it you’ll become more courageous. And with every step, the less frightening it becomes and the more real it grows into being until it truly becomes a part of who you are.

Bring it to your mind every day, keep it in front of you so you don’t forget it.

Write it on sticky notes, place them where you will see them.

What you focus on manifests.

The more you focus on your dream the more courage you will gain to achieve it.

For every one step you take towards your dream, the universal forces will take a hundred.

One of my dreams is to encourage and inspire you to move past your fears and to get to your dreams.

Come and join in, state your dream in the comments below, ask questions, lets encourage each other.

Big Dream Blessings

July 5, 2016July 5, 2016

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