I’m celebrating – Yes, I’ll be 70 in November and I’m celebrating the end of my 60’s.
My 60’s were all about finding revelation, looking for salvation. Searching for the mystery that grabbed a hold of me. Opening and getting to the life force within me. Searching for a deeper knowing. A wisdom that was beckoning from somewhere deep within.
My 60’s have been a decade of pushing, digging, breaking through walls I didn’t even know existed. Walls I built up and kept from the time I was a small child. Tall walls. Big fat hard walls. Walls of steal.
It’s been a decade of finding my way through the thickest of forests. Climbing impossible mountains and swimming in the deepest of oceans, in order to move beyond, to tear down, to unlock the chains that inhibit me and keep me hidden. To get passed it all, to reach a new place. Little pebbles, stones, big stones and even huge stones, I’ve kicked them all out of the way. I’ve had help from Kali, Our Lady of Guadalupe, Lakshmi, Freya, Holy Mother, my angels, spirits, animal spirit guides, ancestors, Lord Ganesha. And there have been some wonderful teachers along the way and books and courses that I took that helped in unlocking the mystery.
I unearthed, uncovered, met my shadow self head on and got rid of inner critics that were telling me I’m not enough and replaced them with affirmations of glorious self worth, YES.
And finally, finally I’ve torn down the FEAR wall, the biggest one of all. You know, that wall that keeps you from stepping into your power. The wall that stops you dead in your tracks. The one that screams – N O T G O O D E N O U G H -written in huge letters all over it. Fear will paralyze you. Fear will keep you from your worth. Fear will keep you in your small place. It’s that one wall that I held on to the tightest. It took lots of courage, strength and tenacity. It took trust, faith and surrender, to move it out of the way.
I’ve learned much along the way; I’ve uncovered much about my inner world. I’ve come to know myself in a way I’ve never before. In other words I’m celebrating getting through. Finding me. Yes ME! And the greatest find of all is the revelation of My Goddess.
I Am. I Am. I Am.
Ready for a brand new hight of consciousness, a journey that holds promise and new teachings and celebrations.
Celebrate with me, come and share your thoughts.
Copyright Masha G. Ellman 2016