A lifetime habit of putting yourself down and believing you’re not good enough or capable enough, or educated enough, doesn’t end just because you said a mantra, journaled about it, affirmed that you are worthy. Or because you became more spiritual, are meditating or saying positive affirmations…

A lifetime habit of putting yourself down is a work in progress and no matter how far you’ve come, those crazy old I’m not good enough thoughts, I don’t know enough, I don’t measure up, let me not get too big, show off. I’m not whatever – enough – will when you least expect them to, they will creep back into your consciousness, stop you dead in your tracks, and leave you frozen in time unable to move. And the thing is that you may not even notice that you’re inside the self doubting yourself roller coaster…
You have to always be conscious of the thoughts that are inside you ruling you. When you become aware and realize, just stop for a minute, and ask yourself –
Is that really true? Do I really believe that I’m not good enough? Do I really believe I’m not worthy enough? Or, deserving enough? Do I really want to make myself less important? Maybe you want to journal about it and go deeper, there is always another deeper layer, and find out where these thoughts are coming from, or why. And when the answer rises, say thank you, thank you, thank you, and – rise up!
Blessings


This keeps me stuck and all the things I had planned on accomplishing during the weekend I can’t seem to get into. I’m stuck inside this negative energy and I’m unable to open the way for love and kindness and creativity and whatever other amazing things want to embrace me. I’ve tried meditating, going out for a walk. I tried going through my photos, taking photos, writing, food shopping, cooking, do the lesson from the course that I’m taking…Like I said, I’m usually mostly pretty good at getting un-stuck, but there are those times that no matter what I do, I can manage to quiet those swirling thoughts for a bit, but then they come back again and again. They are there and they overtake me.


