I Rise Up

A lifetime habit of putting yourself down and believing you’re not good enough or capable enough, or educated enough, doesn’t end just because you said a mantra, journaled about it, affirmed that you are worthy.  Or because you became more spiritual, are meditating or saying positive affirmations…

i rise up

A lifetime habit of putting yourself down is a work in progress and no matter how far you’ve come, those crazy old I’m not good enough thoughts, I don’t know enough, I don’t measure up, let me not get too big, show off.  I’m not whatever – enough – will when you least expect them to, they will creep back into your consciousness, stop you dead in your tracks, and leave you frozen in time unable to move.  And the thing is that you may not even notice that you’re inside the self doubting yourself roller coaster…

You have to always be conscious of the thoughts that are inside you ruling you.  When you become aware and realize, just stop for a minute, and ask yourself –

Is that really true?  Do I really believe that I’m not good enough? Do I really believe I’m not worthy enough? Or, deserving enough?  Do I really want to make myself less important?  Maybe you want to journal about it and go deeper, there is always another deeper layer, and find out where these thoughts are coming from, or why.  And when the answer rises, say thank you, thank you, thank you, and – rise up!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018