Learning to Embrace my Imperfections

I pulled this card today, and I wanted to share it with you because it’s the perfect message right now.  It asks “What can you release to connect to the source of your power?…”  It’s perfect because I’ve been beating myself up over having put my foot in my mouth a couple of days ago, and I’m still feeling bad over it and I need to release that out of me so I can connect with my inner power.  Can’t do it if I’m holding on to my mishap, and putting myself down with negative self talk.

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Sometimes I say something, or do something without thinking, it just comes out of me, and later it hits me and I’m like OMG!!! I can’t believe I said that or did that.  When that happens I have a habit of beating myself up and making myself crazy with negative self talk.  I should have known better.  Whatever possessed me?  Why didn’t I stop myself?  I should have…and I’m thinking about how what I said, or did, is perceived by others or how it affected others and what must they think of me, and what can I do now to change it, and…OMG I just can’t believe myself… And the beating up on myself goes on and on…and all it does is make me anxious, stressed out and I feel even worse.

This is part of my growing and honestly, learning to embrace my imperfections has not been easy and I haven’t found that one quick fix yet.  And hey, if you know of one please let me know because I’ll take all the help I can get here.

So here’s the wisdom this card offers – It’s during these times that I have to stop and remind myself that stuff happens and I’m not perfect.  I’m still working on myself and instead of beating myself up, I should ask myself how is this barrage of negative self talk helping? Am I empowering myself right now?  Look at it, learn from it, forgive myself and release it so – I can stand in my power.

If you relate to this message, I’d love to hear from you, feel free to share.

The featured card is from the, Elena Brower Practice You, Daily Awakening Deck.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

Why Take a Day Off From…

Today I’m just popping in for a quick minute to just invite you to give yourself permission to take a day off – from the world.  That’s what I’m doing and maybe you need to also.

Sometimes I forget that I can’t just give give give, and go go go, I need to also stop, receive and refill.  I need to also give myself time to just rest and replenish, and well…                just do nothing.

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It’s a day that I give myself permission to just be.  Like I said I call it my – day off from the world. No work.  No heavy lifting.  No I have to.  I should.  I must.  No anxiety allowed.  (Although I have to admit I was feeling a bit anxious earlier, I’m totally calm now.)  No feeling guilty for taking time out for me to just chill, to just not expect anything of myself.  Just giving myself permission to play in the field without expectations to accomplish anything, or to create anything, or to inspire anyone…or, whatever it is I think I need to be doing.

Stopping to replenishing my mind, body and soul is the greatest gift I can give to my overall well-being.  This is part of my living mindfully and self-care, and sometimes I forget that I need to embrace solitude, empty space, do nothing time – rest.  Today, in my journal writing I was reminded of this practice by my Celestial Beings, thank you.

So, before I go and take a day off from the world, I just wanted to pop in here and share my thoughts with you, I hope that this will encourage you to do the same, if you’re finding yourself in need of some special self-care.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

Daily Mindful Pause

To connect with my inner self, I like to take a daily mindful pause.  I don’t plan this, I just set the intention for it and I open myself to receive the invitation from Spirit and  step into it.

Today my invitation for my mindful pause was this beautiful bouquet I bought at the store.  When I saw it, I was immediately drawn to it, I felt joy and holiday cheer and  couldn’t wait to come home and see what I was moved to create.

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I love to lose myself in the mystery of the process.  Every time I’m inside that space of creative energy something happens, there’s a silence that I’m immersed in and I lose complete outer sense and become only aware of the now moment and the unfolding of an idea that through me is coming to life.

Love to hear from you, are you practicing a daily mindful pause, please feel free to share in the comments bellow 🙂

Mindful Pause Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

You Are the Magic Wand of Your Life

Today say YES

YES to your life.

YES to what your soul is calling you.

YES to a new beginning.

YES to your dreams.

You are the magic you’re looking for.

You have the wisdom inside of you.

You hold the power.

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Opening up to my light and letting it shine, has been the hardest for me.  I had to first get rid of so many obstacles, tear down so many walls, walls that I had built around me for protection.  Climb impossible mountains.  Step out of a lifetime of fear that kept me trapped inside more fear.  And the thing is that it wasn’t really my fear, I hadn’t really experienced it, this was my parents fear handed down to me like a precious heirloom.  They were holocaust survivors, they had lived through unimaginable horrors, they lost everyone they loved and everything they owned, and in order to protect me from the horrors of this world, they filled me with their fear that became imbedded into every cell of me from the moment I was born.

As a young child I didn’t understand the words, but I could feel my mothers emotions, I could feel her pain every day when she spoke of her life in concentration camps.  I could feel her anguish, I felt her tears.  I didn’t know how to deal with these emotions, I didn’t understand the pain I was feeling and I wanted it to stop, I wanted to run away, and so I buried myself away, I hid myself so deep within that I almost didn’t find myself.

The journey may not be easy but every day you have the power to decide, to move out of, to let go of what doesn’t feel good, what doesn’t serve your highest best. To open a new door within and walk through it. To break a habit, to learn something new, to start fresh. You have the power to change a thought, to inspire, encourage and uplift yourself.  To raise your consciousness. To ask why am I holding on to this? To live in light, to give love to you.

You hold the power to nourishing your fears or nourishing your dreams.  Which do you want to give your power to? Because whichever one you give it to, that one will flourish and grow and be your magic.

You have the choice – you are your own magic wand.

I love reading your comments and thoughts, come share your magic in the comment section bellow, we all learn from each other, lets have a conversation.

Magical Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

Blessed Samhain

I love celebrating the different seasons, and right now I feel a very strong calling towards connecting with Mother Earth and my ancestors through ritual and ceremony.

Giving thanks, honoring and celebrating our ancestors, bringing their spirit forward is a powerful way to connect with the spirits in this world and the otherworld.

With Samhain we mark the end of the harvest season and the beginning of winter, opening up a deep season of inner beauty.  I wanted to share with you my altar of celebrating my ancestors and honoring them.

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I have Our Lady of Guadalupe who is with me always. This is a picture of my mother and father, and I am in the picture eating an apple, I was 18 months old here. I don’t have any photos of my family, they were all killed during the holocaust, but I can feel their spirit present here with me. I have an apple on my altar because my mother loved apples and ate one every day. I have a small stone (I stole from the cemetery, but don’t tell anyone) from my fathers grave site. I also have fresh rosemary to remove negativity and bring in Mother Earth.  A white feather I found outside just a few weeks ago, and a few of my crystals.

Last night my beautiful, precious Labradorite fell out of my hand and chipped a piece and I’m feeling so upset.  This was really not planned this way, it just happened that this morning I had a conversation with the beautiful Lori A Andrus, about something unrelated, but knowing her background i just had to ask, she’s a practitioner of crystal Shamanism, an artist, she hosts the Chrystal Shaman Life podcast, and if you haven’t heard it, you must, you can find her over here She told me the stone is supporting me, maybe there’s something I need to let go of and that I should ask for clarity and blessings.  I will be doing a ritual today to ask for clarity and I’m anxious to see what comes forward for me, what messages I will receive.

My altar will probably evolve a bit more, but I hope that, if you are not already creating an ancestral altar, that you are inspired to start one.

I’d love to hear from you, what your practice is and see a picture of your altar, if you wish to share, you can post in the comment section below.

Samhain blessings

The Message of Clarity

Yes, how perfect for “Clarity” to show up today reminding us to clear out negative energies that are holding us back from knowing the truth of who we are, and living a sweeter life.  As we near the end of this year, it’s a really good practice to get “clarity” and ready ourselves to open to and bring into ourselves higher vibrational energies.

To open up to a higher level of consciousness we have to let go of the lower energies that are holding us back and blocking us.

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Some of the lower energies that are stopping us are fear, and anger, and pain, that we carry around with us, sometimes for years.  A question to ask is – why am I holding on to this fear?  What is stopping me from letting go of it?  How can I be if I release it?  How will I feel without fear, or pain, or anger that I’ve been carrying around?  Start slowly and gently, with compassion for yourself, you can do it, you can let go and release, and free your body, your mind, and your soul.

The more we clear out these negative energies the more “clarity” we will gain and that opens the doorway to living in higher vibrations of consciousness.

And as we reach higher levels of consciousness we find the beauty of who we truly are.

So, what do you need to let go of to get clarity and move into a higher vibration of consciousness?  Love to know if you would like to share in the comments below.

The cards are from the Messages of Universal Wisdom Empowerment Cards by Barbara Evans.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018