Learning to Embrace my Imperfections

I pulled this card today, and I wanted to share it with you because it’s the perfect message right now.  It asks “What can you release to connect to the source of your power?…”  It’s perfect because I’ve been beating myself up over having put my foot in my mouth a couple of days ago, and I’m still feeling bad over it and I need to release that out of me so I can connect with my inner power.  Can’t do it if I’m holding on to my mishap, and putting myself down with negative self talk.

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Sometimes I say something, or do something without thinking, it just comes out of me, and later it hits me and I’m like OMG!!! I can’t believe I said that or did that.  When that happens I have a habit of beating myself up and making myself crazy with negative self talk.  I should have known better.  Whatever possessed me?  Why didn’t I stop myself?  I should have…and I’m thinking about how what I said, or did, is perceived by others or how it affected others and what must they think of me, and what can I do now to change it, and…OMG I just can’t believe myself… And the beating up on myself goes on and on…and all it does is make me anxious, stressed out and I feel even worse.

This is part of my growing and honestly, learning to embrace my imperfections has not been easy and I haven’t found that one quick fix yet.  And hey, if you know of one please let me know because I’ll take all the help I can get here.

So here’s the wisdom this card offers – It’s during these times that I have to stop and remind myself that stuff happens and I’m not perfect.  I’m still working on myself and instead of beating myself up, I should ask myself how is this barrage of negative self talk helping? Am I empowering myself right now?  Look at it, learn from it, forgive myself and release it so – I can stand in my power.

If you relate to this message, I’d love to hear from you, feel free to share.

The featured card is from the, Elena Brower Practice You, Daily Awakening Deck.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

A Little About Tarot

I LOVE LOVE LOVE the Tarot.

There are mysteries and magic in the Tarot that are golden keys to getting deeper into yourself.  Every time I draw a card I’m blown away by the guidance and the messages the cards offer.  They are tools to unlock the unconscious and to go beneath the surface into the otherworld.

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I actually had been thinking about Tarot for years but never really did anything about it, it was just a thought I didn’t know anything about Tarot, I thought it was a fortune telling thing.  I got my first deck in 2015, but I couldn’t really get connected with it.  Last year I took a class and bought the RWS deck more because for the class, I wasn’t attracted to those either.  So I just kind of dabbled in and out of Tarot for over a year until one day there it was, that emotional connection, and everything about Tarot changed.

When you first look at it there’s so much to learn that it can be overwhelming but, I’m giving myself the gift of learning the Tarot, I know it’s not something you can learn and know overnight.  But I can’t put it down, Tarot is in my heart and under my skin.

The Tarot can wake the giants inside you and open the doors to magical gardens.

Every thing has meaning it’s filled with myth, symbols, numbers. There are the elements and scenes, humans and non-humans in the cards. Nature, astrology, fantasy…

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The same card may reveal to you at times different secrets that it’s holding for you. The interpretation of the card can be slightly different from one day to the next and one deck to the next. It all depends on you. They touch upon your emotions; they invite your intuition to reveal them. Oh and lets not forget the flowers, animals, colors and the elements, each revealing a unique aspect of itself you can spend a lifetime learning Tarot and still not know every thing.

There are endless possibilities and infinite wisdom hidden in the visions and meanings of the cards.  It’s a great way of letting your intuition do the talking and getting in touch with your soul.

They are visual way showers. Gateways to the light and shadow parts hidden within you. They are transformational. That’s the beauty of the Tarot it’s filled with mystery giving you a glimpse into your own constantly changing inner world.

They are a mirror of you, they reflect back to you your own inner psyche.

They will point you to where you are on your journey. Within them lie the answers for you to unfold.  They will open your eyes to a situation.

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And the funny thing about Tarot is, (if you’re feeling drawn to them don’t say I didn’t warn you,) is that you can’t have just one deck, or at least I can’t. It’s like eating one potato chip. They draw you to them, they become a part of who you are.

I don’t look at Tarot as a means to foretelling the future, I don’t believe any system can do that, but I do look on them as a means of divination. To learning about myself. To uncovering the mystery that wants to be seen.

And all I know is that everyday when I draw a card it’s the absolutely perfect card, depicting where I am in true raw form.

I am in love with Tarot.

Right now I’m taking a course with Susannah Conway, 78 Mirrors, it’s fabulous.  And I’m signed up for a class with Caroline Donahue,  Story Arcana so excited for this.

Are you a Tarot lover?  What are your favorite Tarot cards?  Would love to know.

Featured Tarot cards above are:

Osho Zen Tarot

The Mary El Tarot (my favorite right now)

RWS Tarot

The Wild Unknown Tarot

The Gilded Tarot

Tarot of the Sidhe

Blessings

Copyright Masha G. Ellman 2016