A Pause in the Day

A simple pause in the day –

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It’s amazing what a moment of pause, of placing your focus on something else can do for you.  While I was out earlier, I was lost in thought thinking about how limited I am right now in my mobility, how life has a way of slowing you down, when suddenly I noticed the tree with its green leaves against the blue sky and the gorgeous clouds, and everything changed, and gratitude showed up.

Happy day!!!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

Finding Wonder and Joy in Every Day

When I pull up the shades and this is what I see, it makes my soul sing with joy.

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A few days ago I fell and by some divine miracle I didn’t hurt my surgery knee, (from which I’m still not fully recovered,) nor did I  completely kill myself.  I am bruised and still feel the fall, but I’m OK.  It’s been four months since the surgery, and I haven’t been able to really go outside and walk around looking for wonder to photograph.

I started off this year with the word “mindfulness” and as the year progressed two other words attached themselves to me, “joy” and “wonder”.  And so far it’s been a real gift to find joy and wonder in the everyday things.  This morning I pulled up the shade and I was immediately struck by this gorgeous view.   I usually don’t photograph airplanes, nor are there many flying over my house, but there it was, the sky the airplane the trees the colors, I could feel the beauty and the view just hit me, a gift to my senses.

Wonder and joy are all around us, they are in our every day no matter where we are, we can find it if we’re open to it.  I feel joy washing the pots I used to cook my dinner in, I love feeling the warm water run through my fingers.  I feel great joy cleaning my kitchen after dinner, feeling grateful for another end of a day and leaving it clean and ready for the morning.

The most important part to bringing a moment of joy and wonder into our day is to want to.  It’s our choice, we get to decide, we can set our intention to be mindful, and open to see wonder in the things that we do or look at every day.

Do you look for a moment of wonder and joy in your days? Come and join in the fun and share your moment, I’d love to know.

Wonder Joy Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

Happy Spring!!!

Spring is here!!!

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I just wanted to stop by and wish you Spring blessings and share this quote I love  –

“Can words describe the fragrance of the very breath of Spring?”  ~Neltje Blanchan

Happy Blessed Spring!!!

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

 

Learning to Embrace my Imperfections

I pulled this card today, and I wanted to share it with you because it’s the perfect message right now.  It asks “What can you release to connect to the source of your power?…”  It’s perfect because I’ve been beating myself up over having put my foot in my mouth a couple of days ago, and I’m still feeling bad over it and I need to release that out of me so I can connect with my inner power.  Can’t do it if I’m holding on to my mishap, and putting myself down with negative self talk.

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Sometimes I say something, or do something without thinking, it just comes out of me, and later it hits me and I’m like OMG!!! I can’t believe I said that or did that.  When that happens I have a habit of beating myself up and making myself crazy with negative self talk.  I should have known better.  Whatever possessed me?  Why didn’t I stop myself?  I should have…and I’m thinking about how what I said, or did, is perceived by others or how it affected others and what must they think of me, and what can I do now to change it, and…OMG I just can’t believe myself… And the beating up on myself goes on and on…and all it does is make me anxious, stressed out and I feel even worse.

This is part of my growing and honestly, learning to embrace my imperfections has not been easy and I haven’t found that one quick fix yet.  And hey, if you know of one please let me know because I’ll take all the help I can get here.

So here’s the wisdom this card offers – It’s during these times that I have to stop and remind myself that stuff happens and I’m not perfect.  I’m still working on myself and instead of beating myself up, I should ask myself how is this barrage of negative self talk helping? Am I empowering myself right now?  Look at it, learn from it, forgive myself and release it so – I can stand in my power.

If you relate to this message, I’d love to hear from you, feel free to share.

The featured card is from the, Elena Brower Practice You, Daily Awakening Deck.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

Every Moment Holds Possibilities

Every moment holds a richness within it that is waiting to be unlocked. A world of new possibilities, of unlimited potential, of opportunities, of miracles and magic. Of feelings yet unknown, of experiences yet to uncover. Of great mysteries to be unveiled.possibilities3

Every moment offers us the possibilities to change our life, to uplift ourselves, to look at what we want to hold on to and what we want to let go of.

Every moment is filled with new choices we can make, a new path we can take, a new project we can start.

In every moment we can nourish our souls, we can decide to…take another step towards our dream. Renew. Change. Become empowered.  Open a new door within.

With every moment we can –

Let go of judgment.

Leave toxic relationships.

Create a new vision for ourselves.

We can –

Dream bigger.

Forgive.

Accept.

Be gentle with our self.

Get curious.

Love.

In every moment lies the opportunity to open to our Great Mother and become the co-creators of our life together with Her.

In every moment lies endless possibilities…

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

 

Lets Get Real…

“The beauty that is within you cannot be contained…it will be reflected without; let it shine forth.” ~ Eileen Caddy

One of the hardest things for me has been to open up about myself and write about me. Oh I can talk very easily and tell someone about myself, no problem.  And at times even disclose secret things, but when it comes to writing them something happens to me, I freeze, I block, I can’t seem to get the words from inside to flow out to the page in the same way that I can get the words to flow out from my mouth.

I don’t know why that is, well I do. Mostly it’s because before I even start writing I’m judging, deleting, editing, criticizing every word before I even let it come into my consciousness if that’s possible.

Purple 2.jpegAnother reason stems from my childhood. My parents were both holocaust survivors, and from a very young age my father would warn me every single day not to tell anyone anything about me or my family. If anyone asks he would warn me, tell them “you don’t know” – These words made me hide myself away afraid to let anyone see the real me, “I don’t know” became my mantra for my life. My father passed away when I was thirteen years old, but his stern warning has stayed with me my entire life.

And then there is of course Miss Perfectionist at work here.  I worry over what people will think, how they will perceive me and that stops my words from flowing.  Instead, my writing becomes stiff, doesn’t sound like me and is laced with high fluting words that I probably would not use in normal every day conversation and this all because I want to look and sound intelligent and interesting and brilliant and clever… on paper.

Knowing all this has not made a difference, I’m still stumped and freeze and can’t write about me, my story, from my heart.

Pink summer flowers.jpegSo I decided to commit to myself and practice writing about ME every day.  Practice opening up, taking myself out of the way and allowing my divine inner self out.

I keep on thinking about what Anne Lamott says in her book Bird by Bird about the need to let go and write those “shitty first drafts” how we need to have those (and I’ll probably have lots of those) to gain clarity into our second and third drafts.  And for me a way to remove those blocks and get to the space of brilliance within.

So this is a start towards a more deeper conversation here, and a deeper more real blog. It may not happen every week, but I hope you’ll join in on the conversation and let me know how it makes you feel.

I’m getting real!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017