Learning to Embrace my Imperfections

I pulled this card today, and I wanted to share it with you because it’s the perfect message right now.  It asks “What can you release to connect to the source of your power?…”  It’s perfect because I’ve been beating myself up over having put my foot in my mouth a couple of days ago, and I’m still feeling bad over it and I need to release that out of me so I can connect with my inner power.  Can’t do it if I’m holding on to my mishap, and putting myself down with negative self talk.

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Sometimes I say something, or do something without thinking, it just comes out of me, and later it hits me and I’m like OMG!!! I can’t believe I said that or did that.  When that happens I have a habit of beating myself up and making myself crazy with negative self talk.  I should have known better.  Whatever possessed me?  Why didn’t I stop myself?  I should have…and I’m thinking about how what I said, or did, is perceived by others or how it affected others and what must they think of me, and what can I do now to change it, and…OMG I just can’t believe myself… And the beating up on myself goes on and on…and all it does is make me anxious, stressed out and I feel even worse.

This is part of my growing and honestly, learning to embrace my imperfections has not been easy and I haven’t found that one quick fix yet.  And hey, if you know of one please let me know because I’ll take all the help I can get here.

So here’s the wisdom this card offers – It’s during these times that I have to stop and remind myself that stuff happens and I’m not perfect.  I’m still working on myself and instead of beating myself up, I should ask myself how is this barrage of negative self talk helping? Am I empowering myself right now?  Look at it, learn from it, forgive myself and release it so – I can stand in my power.

If you relate to this message, I’d love to hear from you, feel free to share.

The featured card is from the, Elena Brower Practice You, Daily Awakening Deck.

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2019

Every Moment Holds Possibilities

Every moment holds a richness within it that is waiting to be unlocked. A world of new possibilities, of unlimited potential, of opportunities, of miracles and magic. Of feelings yet unknown, of experiences yet to uncover. Of great mysteries to be unveiled.possibilities3

Every moment offers us the possibilities to change our life, to uplift ourselves, to look at what we want to hold on to and what we want to let go of.

Every moment is filled with new choices we can make, a new path we can take, a new project we can start.

In every moment we can nourish our souls, we can decide to…take another step towards our dream. Renew. Change. Become empowered.  Open a new door within.

With every moment we can –

Let go of judgment.

Leave toxic relationships.

Create a new vision for ourselves.

We can –

Dream bigger.

Forgive.

Accept.

Be gentle with our self.

Get curious.

Love.

In every moment lies the opportunity to open to our Great Mother and become the co-creators of our life together with Her.

In every moment lies endless possibilities…

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2018

 

Lets Get Real…

“The beauty that is within you cannot be contained…it will be reflected without; let it shine forth.” ~ Eileen Caddy

One of the hardest things for me has been to open up about myself and write about me. Oh I can talk very easily and tell someone about myself, no problem.  And at times even disclose secret things, but when it comes to writing them something happens to me, I freeze, I block, I can’t seem to get the words from inside to flow out to the page in the same way that I can get the words to flow out from my mouth.

I don’t know why that is, well I do. Mostly it’s because before I even start writing I’m judging, deleting, editing, criticizing every word before I even let it come into my consciousness if that’s possible.

Purple 2.jpegAnother reason stems from my childhood. My parents were both holocaust survivors, and from a very young age my father would warn me every single day not to tell anyone anything about me or my family. If anyone asks he would warn me, tell them “you don’t know” – These words made me hide myself away afraid to let anyone see the real me, “I don’t know” became my mantra for my life. My father passed away when I was thirteen years old, but his stern warning has stayed with me my entire life.

And then there is of course Miss Perfectionist at work here.  I worry over what people will think, how they will perceive me and that stops my words from flowing.  Instead, my writing becomes stiff, doesn’t sound like me and is laced with high fluting words that I probably would not use in normal every day conversation and this all because I want to look and sound intelligent and interesting and brilliant and clever… on paper.

Knowing all this has not made a difference, I’m still stumped and freeze and can’t write about me, my story, from my heart.

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I keep on thinking about what Anne Lamott says in her book Bird by Bird about the need to let go and write those “shitty first drafts” how we need to have those (and I’ll probably have lots of those) to gain clarity into our second and third drafts.  And for me a way to remove those blocks and get to the space of brilliance within.

So this is a start towards a more deeper conversation here, and a deeper more real blog. It may not happen every week, but I hope you’ll join in on the conversation and let me know how it makes you feel.

I’m getting real!

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

Every Day We Can…

Every day is a new day to open our imagination, to invite our creativity, to mesmerize ourselves with the beauty that surrounds us – to be inspired.

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Every day is an opportunity to bless the world we live in, to bless someone, to bless ourself.

Every day we stand in the glory of our own majesty and we can open the doorway to the wisdom and the magic and the miracles that surround us, they will show up if we open our heart to them and expect them.

Every day invites us to look, smell, to find, to be our own authentic selves.

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Every day we stand empowered at the helm of new opportunities.  Everyday we stand at the edge of a new beginning where the world is laid out at our feet waiting for us to pick up our desires, our dreams, our wants, our needs, what we crave.

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Every day we can say YES to the rhythm that wants to unfold.  To our own inner gifts that we’ve been given.  Every day we can stand in the power of our own truth and honor who we came here to be.

Every day we choose how we want , what we want, what we give, what we receive.  Every day we decide fear, love, hate, jealousy, generosity.  We can believe, trust, surrender, forgive, be happy…  Every day we decide if we want to honor our bodies, our mind and our spirit and nourish ourselves with healthy choices.

Every day we can open the gateway and take the first step that starts a new journey.  We can create a new vision, we can invite the mystery in, we can live in grace.

Every day we can empower ourselves, we can know that we are the power of our own imagination – unravel our own self, break down our walls.  Every day we can open up, allow our higher self, follow our own intuition and say YES – YES – to our blessed glorious lives…YES. YES. YES.

What are you saying YES to today?  Leave a comment, share your yes here, love to chat and please feel free to share this post.

Every day blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

 

You Have the Power Within You

You are more powerful than you believe yourself to be, more awesome than you give yourself credit for being, you have no limits in your imagination, your possibilities are endless and your love is infinite.

What a great way to end this month of – self love – than to realize and believe that you are powerful beyond measure, have potential within you that is unlimited, and hold the golden key to endless possibilities within you.

How much better self love can you give yourself than to believe that you are a miracle of the All Mighty that you are here to co-create with the Universal Force who can only happen through you.

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You have been given the complete freedom to create your life as you dream it. You have freedom of thought and freedom of will and freedom of love.   How much or how little you allow yourself of this freedom is totally up to you.  You are the designer, the builder, the lover and the co-creator with Spirit of your own life.  You are in charge and you can live in fear as a victim or you can move beyond the fear and live in glory, a victor.

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As you open up to greater possibilities and believe that you are the co-creator of your life, that you hold the magic wand in your own hands and trust the Higher Power within you, your love for yourself will be greater, and from you – love will overflow into the universe.  You will move from living in the dark to living in the light, and your life will change.

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“The power is within you.  It always has been.  How far are you willing to expand the horizons of your thinking and stir that power awake.” ~ Louise Hay

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Give yourself the love you deserve and step into your power, it’s waiting for you!

Are you ready to love you more?  Are you ready to step into your own power?  What has to happen before you can say, YES.  Share your thoughts in the comments below love to hear from you.

The first three photos in this blog are my son’s, Joseph Ellman, check out his amazing photography at  TTLclarity.com

Blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017

Give Yourself a Brake

“You don’t always need a plan.  Sometimes you just need to breath, trust, let go and see what happens.” ~ Mandy Hale

I started out knowing exactly what I wanted to write for this week of February Love last week it was Spend Time With Your Dreams and this week it was going to be – clearing space. Yes, that’s what I planned, (so I thought) I even had a rough draft ready but as the days slipped out from under me it just wasn’t happening.  I couldn’t get myself to read what I wrote, I didn’t feel it, I didn’t know how to write it, I kept on procrastinating every day and I couldn’t approach it, it was stuck inside me and I couldn’t get to it.  It was feeling more like a burden than a joy, and I started to tell myself all the negative stuff that doesn’t serve me.  Everyday that passed I got more frustrated and stressed at not being able to write it.

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In all of this I forgot to have some self compassion for myself and give myself a break.  Instead of stressing over this, beating myself up and berating myself, I needed to remember that every day cannot be the same, and sometimes the plans that we have so carefully and thoughtfully laid out, are just not meant to be, they are not happening.

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” ~ Buddha

I forget that there’s a Universal Force that is greater than me and always knows what is best for me and for all.  Opening to this Universal Force is not always clear to me, I stumble and resist until I realize wait a minute, let me let go and let the Universe do it. Maybe writing about clearing space was not meant for now, someday but not now.

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So last night I went to sleep trusting that the Universe will give me the perfect words.  This morning I opened myself up to allowing what wants to be written to come through, and here I am writing about letting go, allowing Spirit to shine through.  I’m reminding me and you about – compassion for yourself, giving yourself a break, letting go, know that you’re always supported by a loving force and allow the magic to happen.

The love for this week…

Give yourself some self compassion – give yourself a brake – instead of beating yourself up over not being able to do what you had planned – get out of the way and allow what wants to come through.  Be conscious of the Universal Force that knows what is best and let it shine through you.

And I have to say that this feels really good and perfect as I am writing it.

What about you?  Are you giving yourself a brake?  What do you do to give yourself self compassion.  Are you letting Spirit shine through you?  Leave a comment and let us know, love to hear from you.

Sending you lots of love and blessings

COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2017