Hello everyone, I’m really excited to share with you another one of my articles, originally published in the February issue of The Inspired Guide magazine (here) page 48. If you haven’t already read it, hope you enjoy it.
When I was asked to write about, loving yourself, I was so excited I jumped at the chance and said YES. This is exactly in alignment with my goals this year, write/coach about manifesting and learning to love yourself.
And then I went blank, I shut down, I started and wrote and deleted it all a hundred times over. Nothing seemed right or good enough, I couldn’t get the words out. My inner critic, always looking to protect me, was hard at work – who do you think you are? You don’t know enough. You don’t have a college degree. This is too hard, let’s watch a Hallmark movie. I even considered telling the publisher that I can’t write this. But my inner guide was pushing me to write. I manifested this for myself, the Universe was showing up for me and all my old fears were showing up too. I fell back into my old story. Hide and don’t let anyone see you. Just say you don’t know.
My parents were Holocaust survivors, I grew up hearing of the horrors they lived through. In their effort to protect me, they unknowingly instilled all their fears into me. As a child I didn’t understand the meaning of the words, but I felt their pain. Each word my mother spoke landed inside the very core of me. I internalized beliefs and fears about me, life and God that didn’t belong to me. And I lived by them.
You never know how or when your old beliefs can show up, and your old story can take a hold of you and strip you of self-confidence, of any thoughts of being enough, and all the inner work you did disappears. Like out of nowhere my, “you’re not good enough” beliefs about myself were playing in my head. After a couple of days of struggling with this, I finally asked my inner guide for help in my journal. The answer I got was “be daring, the words you’re writing come from the deepest part of love inside you, they are Spirit and this is part of your journey so write it, it’s ok you are safe and protected and loved…Don’t be afraid.”
So here I am, “daring” revealing that – to love yourself is part of the journey. Take small steps, one step at a time if you have to, but get to know who you are, be rooted in your own heart. I believe that part of our purpose in life is to get to know ourselves, to peel away all the false beliefs we take on from childhood. From our parents, society, from our culture, and to find ourselves.
When I was 50, I had a spiritual awakening, in one moment the Universe showed herself to me and I knew everything and I knew nothing all at the same time. From that moment on began my journey to find me, God, and what life is about. Every time I was able to excavate a belief that I was buried under, or bust through a wall I built around me to protect myself, I felt a freedom I had been longing for all my life. I started to see me, life, and God in a new light, my light. I was slowly unlocking myself from limiting beliefs that kept me small and opening to a higher version of me. And somewhere along the path of transforming, I also started to love who I was becoming.
Loving myself has been the magick key that has given me the courage to dream big. It’s helped me to trust and believe more in myself. To live with intention, and be committed and honor my life.
I believe the greatest gift we can give to ourselves is to love our-self. It’s our responsibility to get to know who we are in this life. To love, honor and cherish our self wholeheartedly. When we love our self, we are powerful beings emanating from within healing love energy, out into the Universe.
4 Tips to start loving yourself:
1 – Write it down. When fears stop you, write them down. They may not seem so scary on paper. Ask where did you get this from? Do you really believe it? Change it to something true for you.
2 – Become conscious of your thoughts, they are the nourishment you’re feeding yourself with. Every time you have a thought that puts you down, weed it out, replace it with one that honors you.
3 -Celebrate you, do one thing that makes you happy every day. Sit quietly savoring a latte. Read a book on your lunch hour. Buy yourself flowers. Wear your favorite earrings while cleaning.
4 – Start a gratitude journal and write three things you’re grateful for – about yourself – every day. I’m grateful I accepted a compliment without putting myself down. I’m grateful I gave myself luxury thoughts today…
With the right mindset and a willingness, you will create positive changes.
COPYRIGHT MASHA G. ELLMAN 2020